I am… has been just as riveting a mystery to one as the unknown vastness of the universe itself. Defining man has always been a complicated and intricate affair woven by the complexity of character, moral value, ethics, virtue, hobbies, career, success, wealth, spirituality, intelligence, social capabilities, and so forth. The paradigm to measure the greatness or the depth of man is deeply rooted in subjective perspective and experience. Few in history have ever mastered the art of knowing oneself, I unfortunately am not one of them.
I am currently 18 years old and have just graduated high school. I am attending a medical university in the Carribean as a premedical student, and I will be on the island of Grenada for the next five years. My parents were immigrants from Punjab, India. I follow the Sikh faith as much as possible for the teachings are endless and infinite, yet I am human and stumble.
It only seems proper and right to make a list of topics or activities that I enjoy, but I find these to be as constant as the gusting wind. I try to be positive but at times find myself sliding down the slippery slope of cynicism and satirical spin.
I am a struggling person finding myself astray at times. Life to me can be so beautiful yet so ugly, warm yet so cold, joyous yet so depressing, and alive yet so dead. I find myself a prisoner to my own foreign mind, and am far from knowing who I really am deep within. My soul is hazed by a polluted misty mind submerged in worldly illusions carried afloat by my inflated ego. My anger burns like an inferno, my greed cripples my content, my lust yields impure, my ego wilts my humility, and my attachment keeps me bound to falsehood. I am lost in my own fallacies and suspect to my own destruction, yet I have hope for betterment for I see God on the horizon and I pray for His mercy. I understand that what I reap is what I will sow, and my actions will lead me far or near salvation.
We are all human beings whom bleed red, and seek happiness in life. All united under the banner of an unknown existence and infinity. I am but an atom in the grand design of the universe, so it is, indeed, a humbling experience being human in this life I share.
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September 8, 2008 at 9:16 pm
Lakhwinder
You articulate your thoughts and write really well. Keep it up!
September 14, 2008 at 2:03 pm
Raymond Robinson
I’ve recently seen your request to exchange blogrolls. My partners and I have just set out on this journey because we felt we have a world of things to comment on. We are now an event coordinating machine with a heavy thirst to be opinionated on what goes on in our community. I am of African American decent with roots from the Carribean. Your site is a great read with infinante possibilities. We would love to exchange blogrolls with you to keep the opinions of young people moving. Please e-mail us. The TRUTH will help everyone grow. Peace!
February 19, 2009 at 10:55 am
Miss Raj
wow, i’m 31 and live in London, you have blown me away. I just read your soul satisfying work. I sincerely hope The Great One has placed more rare diamonds such as you on this earth. May God be with you, guide you and continue enabling the light to shine within. You done your parents proud!
February 19, 2009 at 4:26 pm
sikhpath
Thank you so much.
February 19, 2009 at 6:35 pm
HSingh
Wonderful Ji!
I have had similar situations and thoughts entering my mind. I am 22 from london, and seem to think, dear i say, exactly like you, however my written english is not as good as yours.
I do sometimes contemplate on life and whether i should be ‘out there’ having more ‘fun’…but slowly and surly, i realised whoever you marry, marries you for you (hopefully), and what ever god does he does for the best, i also do not want to ruin my mind body and soul by this non-minded nonsense that one has to keep repeating every so often…
I do understand the need to simran and bani, and it has helped me lots! Growign up with a father who used to drink…and just generally researchin and listening and reading about our sikhi and famous sikhs have kept me strong. Sangat is very strong indeed, yet sangat is also in books, stories that keep you inspired! Fun is enjoyment, enjoying oneself…there are lots one can do for fun, and for everyone it is different, it is society that makes one think there is only this way and that way…and like sheep…everyone follows…and as a LION i shall roar before i ever strike, knowing that i do not need to strike, and i shall go out wit a smile, enjoying this life god has given me.
I do not need to write an essay, im sure you understand where i come from…and im sure u will be strong. The world is full of mindless people, but you sir are very lucky to know even how to respond to such people.
God bless!
HSingh
P.s. Remember, there are people in 3rd world countires, poor people, that have never had the chance to see what a club is, or pub, or toys and having money is…do what you enjoy, and love…that shall give you what you need…and if u need happiness, which im sure everyone does, then a famous line from yogi bhajan comes to mind…Commitment, charather, dignity, divinity, grace, then you can serve othere and that will give you power to sacrifice, and happiness!
Apologise for the long message
Satnam
February 20, 2009 at 1:04 am
sikhpath
Wow your a great writer, and I thank you so much for your insightful message. Its an amazing feeling to have such a vast network of support from fellow Sikhs and non Sikhs alike who feel the powerful pull of God. Living a righteous and helpful life becomes a habit when one constantly remembers death. Thank you so much once again.
June 7, 2009 at 9:49 am
pritam.psingh
read your article about amrit // i do agree that everybody is equal in sikhi an god has made everyone but if sikhis dont take amrit being afraid of society where will d principles of guru gobind singh jee go what about his sacrifies!
June 13, 2009 at 9:03 am
sikhpath
A question worth a billion dollars, and one very difficult to understand.